Today's Reading from Just For Today © NA World Services
October 20 Freedom to choose
"Enforced morality lacks the power that comes to us when we choose to
live a spiritual life."
Basic Text, p. 45
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In our active addiction, many of us lived our lives by default. We were
unwilling or unable to make choices about how we wanted to act, what we
preferred to do, or even where we would live. We allowed the drugs or
other people to make our most basic decisions for us. Freedom from active
addiction means, among other things, the freedom to make those choices for
ourselves.
Freedom of choice is a wonderful gift, but it's also a great
responsibility. Choice allows us to find out who we are and what we
believe in. However, in exercising it, we're called on to weigh our own
choices and accept the consequences. This leads some of us to seek out
someone who will make our choices for us-our sponsor, our home group,
our NA friends-just as our disease made our choices for us when we were
using. That's not recovery.
Seeking others' experience is one thing; abdicating personal
responsibility is something else. If we don't use the gift of freedom
we've been given, if we refuse to accept the responsibilities that go
along with it, we'll lose that gift and our lives will be diminished.
We are responsible for our own recovery and our own choices. Difficult as
it may seem, we must make those choices for ourselves and become willing
to accept the consequences.
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Just for today: I am grateful for the freedom to live as I choose.
Today, I will accept responsibility for my recovery, make my own choices,
and accept the consequences.